Posted:   November 21, 2010

Right after hearing the guy say queer bait and faggot, all of us looked around in a state of shock.  I knew who he was talking to by looking at the look on Hayden’s face.

“Who knows that dude?” Kris asked all of us and was looking straight at me.  His face was getting red with anger.

“I don’t,” Kendall said.

“I’m afraid he was talking to me,” Hayden stated with his head down. “He lives down the hall and is a friend of my roommate.”

“Do you need for us to kick his weak ass?” Kris asked. “We’ll do it, just say the word.”

“Nah, it’s his way of feeling superior,” Hayden said, quietly yet embarrassed.

“We don’t take that shit for anyone, right Matt and Corey?” Jess said. “Kris has already to kick some ass once and probably is ready to do it again.”

“Thanks anyway,” Hayden said. “It would just cause even more problems than I already have.”

“I see what you were talking about with guys being assholes,” I said to Hayden.

“I’m about used to by now,” Hayden said with us on our way back to our dorm.

“Used to it? You should be all up in their face,” Kris said.

“It wouldn’t do me much good,” Hayden said. “They think it’s funny and get their kicks out of harassing me.”

“None of us are like that,” Scott said. “It makes sense why Matt brought you over.  We don’t care if you’re gay or what, right, Corey?”

“Yeah, they’re cool, dude,” Corey said with a smile and seemed to be back in the fold but I was still not yet happy with everything.

We kept walking until we hit the door for our dorm. Kendall and Noel didn’t go with us and walked to his room on the first floor.  We said goodbye and climbed the stairs.  Michael, Corey, Juan, his girlfriend and Robert headed down the hall to their rooms while the rest of us piled in my room, which was the norm now.

“Hayden, that dude was fucking rude,” Jess stated. “How do you take it?”

Hayden shrugged, “Like I said, I just live it with it and go on.  I can tell you guys are great just like Matt bragged on all of you earlier.”

“He knows he has it made here,” Kris laughed.

“I know it, too,” I stated. “I can’t thank each one of you enough for making it so easy.”

“No problem,” Kris said and patted on the back.

“So Matt, is this your new guy to tease Corey with?” Scott asked.

“No, we’re just have a class together is all.  Not every gay guy I know is my new guy,” I said smartly.

“You do know that Corey and Matt had a thing going?” Jess asked.

“I didn’t know but definitely don’t blame him,” Hayden laughed. “He’s definitely hot, Matt!”

“He’s a dick, too,” Kris stated.

“I thought you were friends now,” I said to Kris.

“We may be but that doesn’t keep him from being a dick,” Kris said. “He’s damn sure is trying though. All of you do know he’s even thought about dropping out?”

“He told me that, too,” Scott said. “He was going for that sympathy thing.”

“Guys, give him a chance…” I said.

“What the fuck, dude?” Jess asked.

“Not that I’ll ever get back with him.  At least try so he won’t leave and someday regret it because of a broken relationship.  Just think how miserable we’d all be if say Jess got into a fight with say Juan and it was totally Jess’s fault.  Say Juan turned us against you, Jess.  You’d be miserable…”

“Yeah, maybe for a little while,” Jess stated, interrupting me.

“Guys, we all said we’re family.  I know in my family if someone fucks up, we are pissed about but we try our best to get them back.  Sure he’s a dick for fucking around but he didn’t fuck around on us, just Matt.  We’d all be a small part of the reason he left,” Kris said.

“Matt, is it cool with you that we let him back in our circle?” Jess asked.

“Yeah, it’s fine.  If he pisses me off, I can leave the room or something,” I said. “I’m still deeply hurt and don’t know if that will ever leave.”

“At least, it is healing,” Jess stated.

Maybe,” I said.

We kept talking and did our best to get Hayden involved.  The best part was nothing ever came out that Scott and I had hooked up.  He did keep looking at me and smiling but doubt the others caught on.  Jess and Scott left the room a short time later with the need to study or so they said they needed to.

“Matt, you are so lucky,” Hayden said. “I’d kill to live here with all you guys.”

“Kris, I brought him along to show him what great friends I have here. No one disappointed me.  It makes me so proud to have all of them as friends, except for one,” I said.

“We’re being normal.  If you’re a decent person, then you’re more than welcome to do whatever,” Kris said. “I’ve been friends too long with Matt here to be any other way.  I never look at him as being gay other than when he was with Corey and a few other things.  To me, you’re just normal guys who happen to be attracted to guys.  It’s not like you act too gay around us.  Hell, we go to parties together and do lots of things together.  Never once has Matt ever hit on me.  If he did, he knows the answer.”

“That’s the truth,” I laughed.

“Well, I better head back and study,” Hayden said. “Thanks Matt and Kris. I think I now know some decent people here at college.”

“See ya,” I said.  Hayden got up and headed out the door.

“Is he the next conquest?” Kris asked once Hayden was gone.

“We are just friends. Actually, a gay friend would be rather nice around here.  Not that everyone else isn’t beyond great here.  You have girls that you’re friends with that aren’t your next fuck, I hope.”

“Well… maybe some but most I wouldn’t mind having a night with them to try them out,” Kris laughed.  “I bet given the chance you’d fuck him.”

I shook my head, “Maybe if all I thought about was getting my ass laid like your horny ass does.  It would be nice to have a real gay friend around here without being sexual with him.”  I was really talking to me more than I was Kris.

“Hey, that’s half the fun,” Kris laughed. “Getting naked and your big dick up his ass. Matt, admit it would be…”

I ran and jumped on him.  We wrestled around on his bed some but he was entirely too strong for me.  I was gaining strength but so was Kris.  Actually Kris was really getting a great body with all the work we had done in the weight room.  He was almost all lean muscle and proud of it too, I might add.  It was a good break for us though wrestling around and having a few laughs with each other. 

After calming down and wiping the sweat off from our wrestling match, I sat at my desk to check in with Mom.  As always, it was great to hear her voice.  She knew asked how I was doing since she knew that Corey and I had split up but I didn’t go into details.  I said I was doing fine and better each day.  I hung up the phone with Kris chatting away with his parents and some others, one an old high school friend since he was going home the upcoming weekend.

“Kris…” I said, looking at him. “Have you even cracked a book?”

Kris smiled, “What do you think?”

I pointed, “Our agreement.  I can easily now stop getting out.  I’d still be perfectly happy here studying with everything that is going on.”

“Damn,” Kris said and walked slowly to his desk. “This shit better pay off.”

“It will if you study and don’t daydream over there.”

He opened his book.  I sat there a few moments wondering where he would be without me.  Then again, I wondered where I’d be without him.  The dynamics were working like I never imagined they could in my wildest dreams and hopes.  Now I wish I could be totally over the hurt so I could move on and start another chapter with some really cute guys that littered the campus.  I could see my tastes were changing a little as far as the guys were concerned.  I found myself really looking over the guys who appeared to be rather straight with kick ass bodies like some in the rec center.  Kris probably knew the reason I went there at first was to eye the guys.

Kris didn’t study that long but at least gave it a try.  He slammed his book closed, got down his boxer briefs and jumped on his bed.  I surfed a little on the internet and caught up a little on Facebook.  Kris wasn’t that into Facebook but did come see a few pictures our friends from high school had posted.

“Bet they aren’t having as good of time as we are,” Kris said, looking at one of his other good friend’s picture. “I begged Brady to get his ass to come with us but he was dead set on that fucking school.”

I went to the next picture that showed Brady and two more of our friends sitting around with beer bottles all around them.  “They may be having a good time.”

“Shit!  Look at the beer!  Knowing Kevin it was all his though,” Kris stated about another friend of ours.  “I hope they come home this weekend so I can catch up with those dudes.”

After looking at the pictures, I regretted not taking more pictures other than the first game pictures I took.  It was a shame since my camera, a graduation gift from Mom just for me for here at college, was sitting in a drawer and unused.  The problem was I never ever thought about it until everyone was gone just like now.   I turned off the computer and joined Kris watching TV.  He was watching Sportscenter and catching up on all the NFL games along with what was happening in college football as well.  To me, the scores were just numbers despite our hometown having an NFL team.  I never went to the games or was that interested in them.  Kris wasn’t a big fan of our hometown team but I knew he had been and experienced.  I asked about how it was compared to games here.  When he told me the prices, I was shocked and knew I’d have to become a fan and get a little knowledge of football before I’d even consider forking out those prices. 

Finally he muted the volume but kept it on.  I turned out the main lights but kept on the one between us.

Kris rolled to his side, “Matt, there is a little heart in you.”


“Once I said about Corey leaving, you were out to make sure he didn’t leave because of you.  He was dead serious about or putting on one major bluff on our asses.”

“If he was bluffing for sympathy, I’ll be so fucking pissed and let him hear about it too,” I said.

“Oh, I wanna see and hear this,” Kris laughed.

“Kris, I would.  That’s not the right approach but I really think he was serious,” I said.

“I do too but how well do we know him or anyone here for that matter?  Everyone could be playing us for all we’re worth,” Kris said.

“I think everyone has shown their true colors now…”

“Scott is still not in my opinion.  I am not sure but I swear I get this vibe he really is waiting to jump in on you when you say so.  The dude is fucking gay, I swear now he is.  He was really giving Hayden the eye tonight too,” Kris said.

“Maybe he is or maybe he’s not,” I said.

“I know he wants you, Matt.  I can feel it.  I bet he tried shit with you Friday night but you won’t budge,” Kris said.

“Kris, I will confess this.  We did get high,” I said.

“Damn Matt, you fucking dope head.  I can’t believe you’d smoke weed like you have,” Kris stated.

“I can’t either but you knew I did some in high school.  Remember that party over at Marty’s house?”

“Hell yeah, I do.  You fucking ripped that bong.  I totally forgot all about that shit,” Kris said with excitement.

“It was your sorry ass that got me to try it our junior year.  Before then, I never even thought about even taking a hit,” I said.

“Yeah, it was right about you told me you were gay.  We were celebrating in a way.”

“I guess if you wanna call it that.  You were picking me up basically and telling me everything was cool.  Kris, I had to tell you first,” I said.

“I was a little shocked at first but then it totally made perfect sense,” Kris said.  “So is there any hope of you and Corey beyond being friends?”  I loved how we just kept changing the subjects with Kris never dwelling on things that long. 

“I’m still not a hundred percent sold on that yet.  You saw the hurt.”

“I did but…” Kris paused. “we all make mistakes in life, Matt.  One day, you’ll see.”

“I hope not,” I said. “Kris, I’ll tolerate him the best I can.”

“You still care about him.  I can tell that,” Kris stated.

“Yeah, I do. We were in love and really had great sex…”

“Best sex of your life?”

I laughed, “I don’t know and hope I never find the best sex.  Then the rest won’t compare.”

“Oh shit, you are right there.  Imagine me getting to fuck say Brittany, no wait, she’s a total whore.  Bet her pussy ain’t that good any way now.  I know Heidi Klum.  I know you can’t but I can just imagine fucking her.  What’s with her ass anyway, married to that ugly ass guy?”

I laughed, “Seal must have a foot long dick or something.  That face of his grosses me out.”

“Imagine me fucking her.  Then everyone else would be dog shit up side that fine ass pussy I know she has.  You’re so right about the best.  So was he decent?”

I smiled, “He was decent and getting better every time.  Still couldn’t deep throat my shit though.”

“Who could?”

“I won’t answer that,” I said.

“Oh I bet someone has.  Was it Jacob, your fucking emo boyfriend that you thought was so cute?”

“Not even close, Kris.  Just drop it right there,” I said.

“Matt, thanks for making me study.  I need someone to remind or else I’d fail slap out of here.”

“Kris, thanks for dragging me out of the room.  I can’t thank you enough,” I said.

“No problem.  Just think, there are tons we haven’t even met yet,” Kris said. “There even guys on this floor I hardly even know.”

“There’s a shocker,” I laughed.  “Good night, Kris. I’ll see you in the morning, bright and early.”

I rolled to my side while Kris turned off the light.  I know without he rolled over and whipped out his cock.   He always had to jack off before he went to sleep.  I guess that is one reason he wanted me to room with him so he could do it and not catch hell.

That night, I didn’t sleep that well.  I tossed and turned all night with so much cluttering my head.  I did whip out my cock and enjoyed one nice long jack off session with memories of all my old boyfriends fueling my eruption.   It did help me sleep better after shooting one really nice that did taste pretty good as well.  It wasn’t the same as real sex with someone but it did work for the time being.

The next day Monday here in mid October, I finished the day with my test in art appreciation.  I saw Hayden outside the door waiting on me.

“Matt, thanks for last night and showing me there are still some good people left around here,” Hayden said. “I really had a great time with all you guys.  You really have a great bunch of friends.”

We started walking out the building, “Stop by anytime,” I said. “As you might be able to tell, we all just hang out in big groups now.  It’s usually a blast.”

“So how’d you do in there?”

“It was actually pretty easy,” I replied.

“I thought the same thing,” Hayden said.

“Hey, what’d ya think of my friends?  Hot huh?” I asked.

“You weren’t joking when you said you had some hot friends.  Damn, your roommate is so fucking hot…”

“Hayden, he’s so straight it’s not even funny.  He’s not the least bit curious…”

“Yeah, if he was you’d be all over that,” Hayden laughed and poked at me in joking way.

“No, I seriously doubt that.  I would never do anything that would jeopardize our friendship.  Kris is like my brother.”

“That Scott is a hottie,” Hayden said. “He lifted up his shirt once I thought I was going to die right there.  I didn’t see one ounce of fat either.”

“Hey what about me?”

“Matt, you’re hot too.  You know I would love a gay friend unless…”

“I told Kris the same thing.  Sex just muddies the water like you saw,” I said.

“I did and what a shame?  That Corey is fucking built but damn all your friends are.  What’s up with that?”

I laughed, “Kris got us started working out.”

“It shows, too,” Hayden said with Scott approaching us. “He’s hot as fuck.” Hayden mouthed to me.  At least, that’s what I think he said.


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